The photo to the right was taken almost 4 years ago at my high school graduation. At that time, I knew that for the next 4 years, I was going to study at the University of Washington, live in McMahon Hall, and pursue an engineering degree. I graduated with honors and felt like I had a good idea of my future. All I had to do was work towards it. I was excited to graduate because of the incredible journey ahead.
4 years later, I can't say that I have the same excited feeling to graduate from college. First, I'm going to miss college. I genuinely like school, learning something new everyday, and the autonomy that comes with college. But more importantly, I'm not mentally ready to graduate.
I used to be futuristic perfectionist. But while in college, I have learned to be easy on myself in order to enjoy the moment and to maintain sanity. I used to overly plan to avoid procrastination because I thought getting things done early would relieve stress. But I quickly realized that doing that very action was the source of my stressor. I was so busy getting ahead of deadlines, that I was missing out on moments. Now, I worry that I may have been too easy on myself, and in the mean time, lost my inner strength along the way.
I'm now faced with graduation in 32 days with no long-term plan after. For the last 16 years, my goal was to earn a college degree. But this is the first time I feel like I don't know what's in store for my future, and I don't know how to react to it. College prepared me with writing, research, collaboration, communication, and problem-solving skills, but it did not prepare me with life skills. How do you approach a new chapter in life?